I wrote this poem years ago and thought I would share it here today. I’m putting together a collection of short stories and poetry that will be in book form soon.
Here’s a sample.
Cracking, A Sonnet
By Stephanie Verni
Forlorn, the faltering heart has no reason
to fill you with false hope and pay mind to your sanity;
whether there is heat or cold, it disregards season,
and pays no attention to matters of formality.
It breaks nonetheless whether anyone can hear
the silent scream, the muted moan—
inside, aching, but on the outside appears
calm; the whisper of a desperate groan.
Why is it a breaking heart makes no noise?
Unfathomable, really, that the ear can’t detect
the sinking, shattering, cracking, crippling lack of joy;
it used to be intact and you never expect
that a breakage like this won’t repair with glue
and that the red of the sunset has lost its hue.
Five. Seven. Five. That’s the typical length of a haiku. Five syllables make up the first line, seven make up the second, and five again make up the third. When you write novels, you have pages and pages to tell a story; in a short story, you have much less time, and in poetry, you have lines. I’m posting three haikus I’ve written that I like best. I hope you like them, and even more so, that I inspire you to write one of your own.
White winter blizzard
covers moonlit landscape, still;
boots thaw by the fire.
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Haiku: One with Venezia
Heels tap streets, click, click—
gondolier sings “Volare;”
charm bounces off walls.
George Orwell started it. His famous piece, “Why I Write,” has inspired writers of all walks of life to talk about whey they write. I’ve never done this before, and on this snowy day, I decided to take a little time to critically analyze why I write, the process, and why I enjoy doing it. It’s been something I’ve wanted to take the time to do, and after speaking about this very topic yesterday with one of my students, I decided to set out upon the task.
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WHY I WRITE
Part I—The Early Years: My Bad Poetry
All I can tell you is that I remember writing poetry to friends, love poems to “boyfriends,” and fictional letters to The Rolling Stones with my childhood friend, Lee, when we were in middle school. I started writing then, and I haven’t really stopped, although I have taken some short breaks in between to work in baseball or have babies. But when I think about it, I guess I never really did stop writing. Some things are just in our blood, and the very thought of not doing it can make one wither.
We all have selective memory: we choose to remember more fondly some aspects of our lives over others. In my early years when I first started crafting things, it was just really bad poetry. Downstairs in my basement there is a massive collection of poetry I’ve written from middle school straight through college. God only knows why I hold onto it. Some of it I can hardly bring myself to review. Reading the painful torment of being in middle school and high school—and the growing pains associated with it—is a memory I’d rather not revisit. Anything that came after that is in a different collection box. I’m quite good at segregating my work. The younger years box I fondly term “the crap I wrote.” The box I store things in now is fondly called “the better crap I write.” It’s really all crap until we fine-tune it, which is something I’ll address later.
I remember sitting in a “History of Maryland” class in high school doodling on a piece of paper. I would doodle lines of poetry that would pop into my head, and once the first line came in, I couldn’t stop. My apologies to my teacher, to whom I should have been listening.
Lines of poetry like this one would take over both my mind and pen, and I addressed the emotions I was feeling…
It’s so strange, how precious life is
Once it has left us.
The smile that you possessed and shared with us all—
And the twinkle that your brown eyes contained—
I can see you in the back of my mind.
Yet it always seems so hard to remember. (1981)
I wrote that about Paul, a classmate of mine in high school, who was struck and killed by lightning on his driveway when attempting to bring his little brother’s bike in from the rain. I had a sizeable crush on him, as we often do when we are that age (15 going on 16). But it was difficult for me to understand that he was gone.
Writing was a way to get things out and not have it fester. It was therapeutic to put into words what I was thinking.
I wrote this one in my freshman year of college. It’s obviously about a break-up, which I will not elaborate on.
All the miles we have hiked together
Seem to all fade much too quickly.
Paths shared and explored together—
New ways of facing the rocks together,
Looking back at that trail, we have shared a lot;
And we have guided and helped each other.
The dirt, though thick at times,
Never quite turned into mud.
And although the brushes often thickened,
And troubled our times,
We made it through even the thickest of forests.
Until we reached the end of the cliff.
When I slipped and fell,
And you tried to hold on,
But had to let go.
I never meant it to end that way. (1984)
Yes, I kept all this stuff. How it still hurts to read it now.
But ultimately, there’s something about writing that feeds the soul and makes me happy. To see my words on paper, or in my first book, or even on this blog, reminds me that I take tremendous delight in it.
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End Part I
Stephanie Parrillo Verni
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